they told me "slowly but surely".

slowly but surely i won't feel such pain in my chest.
slowly but surely i won't miss you every single second.
slowly but surely i won't miss those wonderful trips.
slowly but surely i won't recall those conversations we had.
slowly but surely i won't see you hugging me in my dream anymore.
slowly but surely i won't see your ghost everywhere we have been.
slowly but surely i won't look at your photos anymore.
slowly but surely i won't imagine your bike parking in the alley.
slowly but surely i won't imagine you knocking at my door.
slowly but surely i won't recall how you said "oi de".
slowly but surely i won't recall how you told me "ano suki desu".
slowly but surely i won't wonder what you are doing at this time.
slowly but surely i won't miss your dog and wonder if she's doing good.
slowly but surely i won't miss your mom and your aunt.
slowly but surely i won't remember which floor you stay.
slowly but surely i won't remember the view from your window.
slowly but surely i won't remember your scent.
slowly but surely i won't remember the way you snore.
slowly but surely i won't remember how you rolled in my bed.
slowly but surely i won't remember the brand you smoke.
slowly but surely i won't remember your favourites.
slowly but surely i won't remember your number.
slowly but surely i won't be reminded of you when i see anything japanese.
slowly but surely i won't mind those lies you told me.
slowly but surely i won't mind what you promised but didn't really mean it.
slowly but surely i won't mind how cruel & cold the way you left me.
slowly but surely i won't be disappointed with you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't be jealous about you & her.
slowly but surely i won't love you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't hate you either.

because it's heart-breaking, it's tiring,
it's depressing, it's torturing,
it's not the way i used to be.

because this is how nature rules.
just like spring comes after winter.