28.2.09

they told me "slowly but surely".

slowly but surely i won't feel such pain in my chest.
slowly but surely i won't miss you every single second.
slowly but surely i won't miss those wonderful trips.
slowly but surely i won't recall those conversations we had.
slowly but surely i won't see you hugging me in my dream anymore.
slowly but surely i won't see your ghost everywhere we have been.
slowly but surely i won't look at your photos anymore.
slowly but surely i won't imagine your bike parking in the alley.
slowly but surely i won't imagine you knocking at my door.
slowly but surely i won't recall how you said "oi de".
slowly but surely i won't recall how you told me "ano suki desu".
slowly but surely i won't wonder what you are doing at this time.
slowly but surely i won't miss your dog and wonder if she's doing good.
slowly but surely i won't miss your mom and your aunt.
slowly but surely i won't remember which floor you stay.
slowly but surely i won't remember the view from your window.
slowly but surely i won't remember your scent.
slowly but surely i won't remember the way you snore.
slowly but surely i won't remember how you rolled in my bed.
slowly but surely i won't remember the brand you smoke.
slowly but surely i won't remember your favourites.
slowly but surely i won't remember your number.
slowly but surely i won't be reminded of you when i see anything japanese.
slowly but surely i won't mind those lies you told me.
slowly but surely i won't mind what you promised but didn't really mean it.
slowly but surely i won't mind how cruel & cold the way you left me.
slowly but surely i won't be disappointed with you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't be jealous about you & her.
slowly but surely i won't love you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't hate you either.

because it's heart-breaking, it's tiring,
it's depressing, it's torturing,
it's not the way i used to be.

because this is how nature rules.
just like spring comes after winter.

5 comments:

sputnikm said...

回归大自然的原理。

有开始, 就有结束。
有相识, 就有离别。
这就是游戏的规则。

加油!每天多放开他多一些些。
我。也是这样每天学着努力的放下。

sokkuan said...

hey sputnikm, 謝謝你! ('u')
can i access to see your blog?

karen said...

slowly but surely..
we will be whole again

sputnikm said...

Just wana share this lovely book with you.
"Exquisite pain" by Sophie Calle.

Read it a no of times. But still everytimes its never fail to draw me back again and again. Her other works are strong and great too. Enjoy!!

sokkuan said...

hey thanks so much!!
i will definitely look for the book!

('u')