30% of detachment.

the only thing i remember what my primary school principal taught.

one morning, we were making noises at our desks before the bell rings.
out of nowhere, he came to us, this bunch of 10-year-old kids,
he sighed (in my memory) and said,
"as an individual, we should always keep at least 30% distance from anybody, 
even the one you love most or the one whom you are closest with."
and then he left.
and then we continued making noises as if nothing has happened.

few years ago, i recalled this.
and i think it's so true.

that 30% of detachment is what makes any relationship better.
for yourself and for the other individual.

the big bang and clash.

nothing lasts.
tat's why you have to be positive.
i know. it sounds contradictory.
but this life, this universe is the product of one.
or 'balance' wouldn't have existed.




嗯,醒來了。 天黑了。 不在。 然後呢? ...... 開燈吧。




it's been a long while...

i think i've changed a little.
there are some plans ahead.
hope they will turn out nice.


under a tree.

she dressed herself up and walked and walked...
and she came to a bench under a tree and so she sat down.
watching some people passing by, 
she could almost feel the flow of time passing through her toes quietly.
after staring at the shadow of the tree on the ground for a while,
she looked at the clock in the phone and suddenly felt lost about what to do next.
she checked her contact list in the phone and not sure who she could/should call.

she hoped, at least, it was an apple tree where she was sitting under.
maybe an apple tree could be much more inspiring.

but the reality is, whether you like it or not.
it's not an apple tree.

ok. it's irrelevant.


cool music nice video, but the below is even better. i like the irrelevance.





...and it's...when you dare to be vulnerable.




sadako's travel photo diary.

wherever i go, it is still there.
i failed to get rid of it.



i love reading wise quotations, it's like appreciating the most delicate crystal with a gasp. afterall, all enlightenment could only be gained after the long process of struggling with pressure and pain in life.

"Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go... And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over."
- Gloria Naylor

"Take hold lightly; let go lightly. This is one of the great secrets of felicity in love."
- Spanish Proverb

"My mother drew a distinction between achievement and success. She said that 'achievement is the knowledge that you have studied and worked hard and done the best that is in you. Success is being praised by others, and that's nice, too, but not as important or satisfying. Always aim for achievement and forget about success.' "
- Helen Hayes

"Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live."
- Margaret Fuller

"Human pain does not let go of its grip at one point in time. Rather, it works its way out of our consciousness over time. There is a season of sadness. A season of anger. A season of tranquility. A season of hope."
- Robert Veninga


little pleasure (never mind if it won't last)

darkest (and it's always there).

"reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."
- albert einstein





just when you think that you're gonna be very busy, nothing happens.
just when you think that it'll be very quiet, all of them rush in.


the side of me that is strange to me.

have you ever been surprised by yourself when you discover a side of yourself which you never knew before?


“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

An you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.”

— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore





went to art stage singapore. hmmm... i wish i can do big scale sculpture one day...



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