離ればなれ。

30% of detachment.

the only thing i remember what my primary school principal taught.

one morning, we were making noises at our desks before the bell rings.
out of nowhere, he came to us, this bunch of 10-year-old kids,
he sighed (in my memory) and said,
"as an individual, we should always keep at least 30% distance from anybody, 
even the one you love most or the one whom you are closest with."
and then he left.
and then we continued making noises as if nothing has happened.

few years ago, i recalled this.
and i think it's so true.

that 30% of detachment is what makes any relationship better.
for yourself and for the other individual.

the big bang and clash.

nothing lasts.
tat's why you have to be positive.
i know. it sounds contradictory.
but this life, this universe is the product of one.
or 'balance' wouldn't have existed.

這種厭惡的感覺隨我的心跳傳到大腦再向全身迅速散發。
以至於當我在逼自己做時有一種呼吸困難和發抖的感覺。
我不確定這是不是幻覺但我就是厭惡它到這可怕的程度。

嗯，醒來了。 天黑了。 不在。 然後呢？ ...... 開燈吧。

迷失遊牧民族首篇粗糙三字經。

人飄渡／歸何處／此孤獨／與無助／鮮表露／怎坦訴／望遠空／挑哪星／遊牧族／都忍住

it's been a long while...

i think i've changed a little.
there are some plans ahead.
hope they will turn out nice.

under a tree.

she dressed herself up and walked and walked...

and she came to a bench under a tree and so she sat down.

watching some people passing by, 

she could almost feel the flow of time passing through her toes quietly.

after staring at the shadow of the tree on the ground for a while,

she looked at the clock in the phone and suddenly felt lost about what to do next.

she checked her contact list in the phone and not sure who she could/should call.

she hoped, at least, it was an apple tree where she was sitting under.

maybe an apple tree could be much more inspiring.

but the reality is, whether you like it or not.
it's not an apple tree.

ok. it's irrelevant.

cool music nice video, but the below is even better. i like the irrelevance.

いつか

あの日が

いつの間にか

くる。

...and it's...when you dare to be vulnerable.

dawn

sadako's travel photo diary.

wherever i go, it is still there.
i failed to get rid of it.

crystals.

i love reading wise quotations, it's like appreciating the most delicate crystal with a gasp. afterall, all enlightenment could only be gained after the long process of struggling with pressure and pain in life.

"Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go... And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over."
- Gloria Naylor

"Take hold lightly; let go lightly. This is one of the great secrets of felicity in love."
- Spanish Proverb

"My mother drew a distinction between achievement and success. She said that 'achievement is the knowledge that you have studied and worked hard and done the best that is in you. Success is being praised by others, and that's nice, too, but not as important or satisfying. Always aim for achievement and forget about success.' "
- Helen Hayes

"Men for the sake of getting a living forget to live."
- Margaret Fuller

"Human pain does not let go of its grip at one point in time. Rather, it works its way out of our consciousness over time. There is a season of sadness. A season of anger. A season of tranquility. A season of hope."
- Robert Veninga

little pleasure (never mind if it won't last)

darkest (and it's always there).

"reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."
- albert einstein

無敵。

以平常心，
而無所謂，
而無期望。
而無爭。
而無惱。
而無敵。

unpredictable.

just when you think that you're gonna be very busy, nothing happens.
just when you think that it'll be very quiet, all of them rush in.

the side of me that is strange to me.

have you ever been surprised by yourself when you discover a side of yourself which you never knew before?

“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

An you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.”

— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

向前向上。

頭也不回。

低調的參與。

went to art stage singapore. hmmm... i wish i can do big scale sculpture one day...

we are not tokyo girls but where are ike-men?

下午在目瞬一刻喝了一杯卡布奇諾，一杯拿鐵，一杯冰檸檬茶，啃了一本半書。當下覺得如果就永遠停留在這一刻也不錯。一度還讀到非常有共鳴同感而有點熱淚盈眶。身體也許因咖啡因作怪而不禁微微顫抖。自己一個人也能high的美好時光。松浦彌太郎的最糟也最棒的書店。還有蜷川実花的尋找幸運星。

完美結束 • 完美開始

撥開歡慶新年的人群我走了出來，
眼角督見了一張曾經熟悉的臉孔。
出奇冷靜的我向那張臉淺淺微笑，
輕輕點了點頭卻絲毫沒停下腳步。
那故事尾端一直以來欠缺的句號，
終於在整整三年後完美地被點下。

其實人生的下一章早就已經開始。
但是當下永遠將會是以後的曾經。