28.6.09

my sophie black saw hypercolour.


Despite the extreme pain suffered from that firework blast, i am glad that my lucky Sophie Black saw wonderful hypercolor when she was down in a deep well of hell. that precious colour painted by family & friends with love. (' u ')
(2nd exhibition with 10 other artists in town)

23.6.09

forgive.

"Forgiving is love's toughest work, and love's biggest risk. If you twist it into something it was never meant to be, it can make you a doormat or an insufferable manipulator. Forgiving seems almost unnatural. Our sense of fairness tells us people should pay for the wrong they do. But forgiving is love's power to break nature's rule."

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you."

~Lewis B. Smedes

oh... i need to forgive. i wanna forgive. i'm still learning how.

22.6.09

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength.
While loving someone deeply gives you courage.
~Lao Tzu~

總覺得。。。

有一些事情需要去做,
或者是遺漏了些什麼,
可我不知道是什麼事。
不知道不知道。。。
到底是什麼?

14.6.09

om....

went to yoga today. feel good. (' u ')

12.6.09

what does this mean?


i realised this when i took this bottle out from my bag after a long day of walking under the sun. what does this mean? too steamy?! too hot?! hidoi!!! they forecast that next month will go up to 35ºc. ('_';) BUT!!! i will not buy air-con!

10.6.09

父親。


爸爸匆匆地來又匆匆地被新加坡的悶与恐怖的悶熱嚇跑了。其間和他吃了兩次晚餐,聊了一些。除了他貫常的大道理,他這次還猛贊他女兒越來越漂亮,臉上還一付像看著自己的作品並且很滿意的表情。我知道他是在安慰他失意的女兒,所以勉強擠出笑容,心裡百感交集。老爸雖然超愛遊山玩水,但他這次來是為了看他女兒,我真的很感動,因為新加坡真的超悶的。他對我說,你忙你的,我自己到處走走。結果他去了植物園与動物園。在家裡猛赶畫的我超想和他去的,雖然一路上可能得听他的大道理,但自從小時候他抱著我去過動物園後,我們就沒再一起去過了。其實要不是他愛美去染黑髮,他早已一頭花花的白髮。但他走路還是很快,我有時還得跨大步赶上他哩。這次他來,過馬路時他還牽了我的手,好奇怪的感覺。讓我不竟想起前男友都很少牽我手過馬路,決定了如果下一個男友自顧自地過馬路而不牽我的手的話就叫他滾開!爸還跟我說我和妹妹這兩個身在外地打拼的女兒,要是哪天受不了,爸永遠歡迎我們回家,他大可以養我們。當然我不會那麼沒出息,但我很感動!那句話說得真man!哈哈。想想老爸雖然脾气又怪又臭,可他真是有肩膀的漢子!然後又聊到他會留財產,我其實沒興趣去听他會留多少留什麼給我們並不想繼續討論,因為。。。太太太奇怪了!!我不想去想像那一天的到來,可是他倒像是看得蠻開的。爸爸從年輕一路吃了不少苦,造就他那讓人又愛又恨的個性,那像定時炸彈的脾气,一時狠一時肉麻一時顛一時好,媽就受了不少苦,也讓我們從小就學會看臉色,後來出來社會發覺其實受益不淺呢。無論如何,雖然從小就急不及待地期盼趕快離家經濟獨立以便不須再忍受他的壞脾气和不要做他當年怒罵時所說的蛀米虫,現在的我看來,雖然爸爸向來表達愛的方式有點狠有點出其不意而且讓孩子們害怕痛恨嫌煩又措手不及,退休後逐漸變得溫柔得來又怪肉麻的老爸真是一個對家人負責的好漢!就讓他繼續講大道理,繼續他的快步向前走,繼續遊山玩水,繼續大口吃飯,繼續肉麻!

*爸爸離鄉到吉隆坡打拼曾當過羅厘司機,當年太窮沒地方住就睡在羅厘。年輕時還蠻帥的喔。哈。