“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing
directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn
again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some
ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm
isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing
to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you
can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes
and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through
it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense
of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized
bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.
An you
really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic
storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no
mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor
blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood.
You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of
others.
And once the storm is over you won't remember how you
made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in
fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When
you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in.
That's what this storm's all about.”
— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
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