28.1.12

the side of me that is strange to me.

have you ever been surprised by yourself when you discover a side of yourself which you never knew before?

26.1.12

“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

An you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.”

— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

向前向上。

頭也不回。

14.1.12

低調的參與。

went to art stage singapore. hmmm... i wish i can do big scale sculpture one day...

2.1.12

下午在目瞬一刻喝了一杯卡布奇諾,一杯拿鐵,一杯冰檸檬茶,啃了一本半書。當下覺得如果就永遠停留在這一刻也不錯。一度還讀到非常有共鳴同感而有點熱淚盈眶。身體也許因咖啡因作怪而不禁微微顫抖。自己一個人也能high的美好時光。松浦彌太郎的最糟也最棒的書店。還有蜷川実花的尋找幸運星。

完美結束 • 完美開始

撥開歡慶新年的人群我走了出來,
眼角督見了一張曾經熟悉的臉孔。
出奇冷靜的我向那張臉淺淺微笑,
輕輕點了點頭卻絲毫沒停下腳步。
那故事尾端一直以來欠缺的句號,
終於在整整三年後完美地被點下。

其實人生的下一章早就已經開始。
但是當下永遠將會是以後的曾經。

1.1.12

i don't mind if...
i don't wanna mind...
i don't care if...
i don't wanna care...
i don't expect...
i don't wanna expect...
i don't remember...
i don't wanna remember...

i try...
i try not to...


let loose.



let go.