ね

ね、私、、、
朝から、夜まで
夜から、朝まで
ぜんぜんねむれないの。

誰か助けてくれないか

いつか悪夢から覚める
いつかまた笑える
いつか誰かと
いつかまた

何を言ってるの？
ひどくない？

２００９アケオメ

let me know

がんばりましょう

i tripped.
but i must stand up again.
so that i can continue walking.
so that i can walk along with my loved one.
so that my hands are not on the ground
and able to hold my loved one’s hands.

i cried.
but i must smile again.
so that i don't stress people up.
so that people won't run away from me.
so that i can make people smile.
and that will make myself smile.

i'm tired.
but i must regain my energy.
so that i will be in good shape.
so that i can overcome challenges.
so that people won't take me as a burden.
and they feel at ease with me.

it's my own responsibility to make myself contented.
start looking for simple and small happiness.
so that i can share little happiness with people i love.
and they will share theirs with me.

i've been keeping a little girl in me.
but i can't act like a little girl.
i must always remember this.

てちゃん、がんばろうね！ ('u')

Somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
she'll get my support
she will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
shell hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
she will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put her arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....

*Thanks for introducing this song to me.

countdown

everyone's counting down to new year.
i'm counting down every second to the day we will meet again.

love vs. like

according to Wikipedia:

LOVE
is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection.[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my girlfriend"). This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept, love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual emotional closeness of familial and platonic love[2] to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love.[3] Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.

LIKE
(As a verb)
Generally as a verb like refers to a fondness for something or someone.
Like can be used to express a feeling of attraction between two people, weaker than love and distinct from it in important ways.

according to dicionary.com:

LOVE
–verb (used with object)
1. to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.
2. to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).
3. to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.
4. to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.
5. to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.
6. to have sexual intercourse with.

LIKE
verb, liked, lik⋅ing, noun
–verb (used with object)
1. to take pleasure in; find agreeable or congenial: We all liked the concert.
2. to regard with favor; have a kindly or friendly feeling for (a person, group, etc.); find attractive: His parents like me and I like them.
3. to wish or prefer: You can do exactly as you like while you are a guest here.

happiness.

“Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you”
~Nathaniel Hawthorne

last time.

sometimes i miss those crazy days when all of us enjoyed copying each other's dance steps, listening to free tempo, laughing at stupid jokes, sharing opinions, problems, hugs... but i don't wanna go back.

ハチ。

ハチ、ハチ、早く元気になるように。

媽媽。

好幾次好幾次，媽媽就在我超低落時打電話給我問好。我當然說一切都好。心裡想著，難道千里外的媽媽感應到我的低落嗎？太厲害了吧。

一個人。

一個人醒來，一個人工作，一個人吃飯，一個人看電視，一個人逛街，一個人說話，一個人抽煙，一個人休息，一個人週末，一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人一個人。原來有了愛情，大部分時間還是一個人。

牛油萬歲。

近年來的每一次海外旅遊，從機上開始，只要看見牛油出現，平時也沒特別想買來吃的我就會瘋狂湧起嗑牛油的衝動。機餐裡的一顆小圓面包能讓我狠狠地嗑上四塊牛油。其中兩塊是同伴不要的，一塊是不知廉恥硬跟空姐從回收的餐盤裡要來的未開封過的。溶在口裡的清純幸福的滋味真的讓我high死了。旅途中所遇上的牛油都有吃錯沒放過！可是旅行結束後，一切又恢復正常。幸好是這樣。

和美。

Priss' post in her blog about how she met her good friend reminds me of a story which happened after I met Kazumi, who is a happy OL in Singapore now. I met her thru a friend. One fine day after 1-2 years we met, I found out one precious piece from my magazine cutout collection that made me fell from my bed (I was clearing the old cutouts on my bed). Kazumi is in it!!! She was modeling in Tokyo that time. I cut that out because I like the hairstyle and wanted to use that as a reference to show my hair dresser long time back. What can I say other than FATE? 超不思議！

少女の宝物 その一。

全然高くないけど、中に思い出がいっぱい隠れた宝物です。
They are all inexpensive, yet my treasures with sweet memories(some given by friends). Although I am not a young girl anymore. ('u')






I tried to clean and pack my stuff in the house yesterday and realised that I have a lot of things actually. Accessories, clothes, shoes, bags, books, beautiful cutouts, decorative items... Wow how could a human being own so much things in life! I should simplify my life. I will register those sweet ones to remind myself that I am lucky to own so much beautiful things and I should not just anyhow buy new stuff again. In fact, I have enough clothes, shoes and bags to wear for the rest of my life...only if I don't keep myself updated with fashion trend and only if I am not greedy. ('u')

happy halloween

My plan for tonight was to work out the final piece of a long delayed pro bono job. Yet I just received a big halloween 'surprise' - my cinema display screen just went dead. I am not sure if it's just the monitor problem or something wrong with the CPU, I sincerely sincerely sincerely hope that those heavy & complicated work-in-progress files inside my harddisk are not affected from this... they cost my bloody life and many sleepless nights... Now I must stay calm... and wait for technical support tomorrow.

Life is so unpredictable... your important data in computer, bank saving that you worked your whole life for, your loved ones could be gone without any notice. Anything could happen.

Anyway, ya, happy halloween.

i miss my long long hair

I love this picture. Thanks for taking this for me. And I think I miss my long hair. ('u')

a surreal ride

Amazing sea view from train was super surreal to me! It kind of reminded me one of the scene in Spirited Away which the train was traveling across sea. By the way, I guess the obasan in white hat was having her good old romantic memory flashing back in her mind. On the way to meet her first lover?

i have forgotten [4]

I LOVE Gustav Klimt's art! It's really inspiring to me.
Haiz...I really feel like stop working on commercial job for a while and improve on my personal project. Sophie Black has been waiting for me for a long time.

新加坡港

世界東西交匯最繁忙港口，看不見半個人影。看來最忙的是机械長頸鹿們。

陽光 • 夏

陽光下，看看它的創作。

婀挪多姿的樹影好悠閒。

點點閃爍的波光好活潑。

我愛童話

不知不覺在這兒住兩年了，懶惰的我那一天稍微整理了一下。問問自己長這麼大了還留著這些看來只會收集塵埃的小玩意們幹嘛。想了想，也許是因為心裡那小女孩還眷戀著她的童年吧。

曼谷小巷的黑色大門裡

好酷的小黑鹿碟子。

恐怖的魔鬼墨魚汁“趴斯達”。


可愛小花蝴蝶結！

誘人的黑白組合！

我最愛千層蛋糕，還是白色的！

好花心思的玻璃鏡喔。

台灣炎炎夏日

這是芭樂嗎？好粉紅喔。

昨天，我很傷心，生氣，無奈，委屈。
因為已是昨天，我希望成為過去的，
是這件事，而不是友情。

過去的時間讓我們體認到人生無常，
將來的某些也只有時間能告訴我們。

可是我還是幸福的。我會盡量惜福。
在我能力範圍內的，我都會去做的。

好累。

寂しい戦場

雜亂。瘋狂。燃燒。盲目。麻木。日夜顛倒。天旋地轉。

James Jean!! Sugosugi!!

I was totally blown away (like a small tiny dust) when i saw this artpiece by James Jean! This is the one i like most from his series done for AIDES. It's so inspring! I feel so tiny infront of him. But! i will achieve this one day. :-p

水族館が大好き！

ずっとじっと見ても飽きない！

Let's go to the beach.

工作好累哦。累得腦都麻了。可是我不怨。
我躺了下來，往上遙望，看見了想念的櫻花。
白瓣黑枝，我中的毒，永遠不能解。
腦是還在麻，可是看著妳，我不想睡。
好想再去。再一回慢慢的。簡單的。

花：對不起，落你身上。
木：太好了，接住你了。

I love sky

I love taking photos of things against sky. Sky simplifies messiness, it makes me wanna take a deep breath, reach out for it, and feel free.