the bright side.

from now until then,
i should just focus
on sewing and reading.
forget about the issue of
earning no bread & butter.

武俠。

喜歡武俠里的血，黑暗。
環繞死肉的蒼蠅，寫實。
一張髒兮兮的臉，魅力。
她的一句晚上見，幸福。

時間飛逝過了那麽久我仍還沒思索出來。
這樣不顧一切不斷去旅行是不是很過份。

應該不會很過份。哈。

inevitable plastic!

went to super mart with two tote bags today. YET i still ended up bringing back a lot of plastic! bread, vege, milk, toilet rolls, detergent... every single item i bought was packed in plastic! sigh...

...and our mother earth has been enduring it quietly

Some sad articles about what we have done to mother earth:

"The ocean is now an endless trail of trash floating in the middle of the Pacific: water bottles, plastic crates, disposable diapers, bath toys, cigarette lighters, tampon applicators (styrofoam, too); a veritable buffet of convenience culture.”

"The discovery in 2002 was a wake-up call for marine scientists, who realised that plastic bags and other waste were one of the biggest threats to the whales, dolphins and turtles swimming around our shores. The minke was found on the Normandy coast. At first, it was assumed she had died of natural causes. When her stomach was cut open, scientists were amazed to find nearly two pounds of plastic bags, eaten by mistake as she searched for food. The 2lb haul included two plastic bags from English supermarkets, seven transparent plastic bags, and fragments from seven dustbin bags. In an ironic twist, one of the bags found in the gut of the dead whale appears to read: "We support good farm animal welfare." Most worrying of all, there was no proper food in her stomach. "

And...plastic garbage found in dead whale's stomach too...

And we have Great Pacific Garbage Patch (or Pacific Trash Vortex), which is is a gyre of marine litter formed by pelagic plastics, chemical sludge etc, in the central North Pacific Ocean. And a recent research sponsored by the National Science Foundation suggests the affected area may be twice the size of Texas!!!

Gosh! Since I had such awareness, I've started trying my best not to take any plastic carrier while making any purchase but I realised it's hard to avoid consuming plastic in our daily life. even i use my eco shopping bag for supermarket shopping, fruits like strawberries, kiwi, or vege are all packed in plastic. many items at our home are made of plastic.

A plastic bag that we use only for a short while takes 400 years to be dissolves. I really can't foresee how much longer our mother earth can take in such shit anymore...

Oh well... let's try not to take plastic bag when we make any purchase. I guess that's the least we can do for our mother earth. Plastic is suffocating!

a love song.

"Just looking in your heart all my life
I'm searchin' for you, my sweet baby
I'm not hurtin' good good feelin'
I know who I'll have in my mind"

this song has been on loop for N times on my play list.　全然飽きないぐらい。 it feels kind of bitter sweet.

夏。

taken with seagull at caramel cafe. love the lightness from overexposure! even though it was a mistake.

ミナ・ガール

i ❤ minä perhonen.

當政府是無情無義無惡不做的黑幫。

我不愛看報紙。可是曾經我每天都看報紙。那是在中學時期。後來我發現，報紙上大多都是壞消息。每次看報紙後，心情都很沉重，我就漸漸放棄這習慣了, 也厭惡政治。

曾經對馬來西亞充滿希望。當時首相馬哈迪2020的口號，感覺大家對國家進步與建設充滿干勁。後來漸漸長大，看見像豺狼般貪污的馬來警察，像死蛇般懶散的馬來政府官員，像豬般沒水準的馬來政治領袖，還有不公平的種族政策，讓我極之厭惡這無能的馬來政府。為什麽在自己的國家，感覺卻像是寄人籬下？在自己的國家被當二等公民，不如到外國做游民。多少被不公平對待的華裔父母鼓勵孩子們往外“逃”。至今旅居新加坡十多年了，雖然是寄人籬下，但是至少在這里我找到很多機會，也不覺得有被不友善地對待。而那愚蠢的馬來政府在國際上做過多少羞家的蠢事，讓我們這些在海外努力爭氣的游子們在別人面前尷尬不已。

馬來西亞對我來說，感覺就像熟悉的陌生人。當別人高喊我愛我國家時，我覺得他們好幸福。我覺得好悲哀因為我喊不出來。可是仔細想想也許我把國家和政府混繞了。如果我會感覺到沉重，或許因為我還愛著這曾經美麗純樸的國土。而我那麽痛恨那些豺狼死蛇和豬，是因為它們的貪濫自私愚蠢糟蹋了這原本潛力無窮的國家。

我由衷願望那些下流卑痞爛泥扶不上壁的無情無義無惡不做的豺狼死蛇和豬他馬的慘遭天煞!

自由自在。

有時思考很多因為害怕年紀的到來。
當它真正到來時卻是那麼安靜低調，
而且潛移默化地讓我們來不及察覺。
感覺自己好像還一樣又好像不一樣。

以前有自由但不怎麼自在。
如今不只自由還十分自在。

好事來的。 越來越好。

possess less part I :: shoes

to implement my "i-want-to-possess-less" principle, i have started from cleaning up my store room today. it's kind of a re-discovery of what i've been keeping, here's the shoes section:

i bought these many many years ago. looking at them now, i find them horribly sharp! but they did look the best during their era.

the grey "ballerina" was a wrong purchase, i hadn't even worn them once.
i was overwhelmed when i saw the one with embroidery. i had never seen one with such fine and soft materials back in those days. i seriously thought they were "art". haha... now time has passed and they just look normal.

i like flats with very shallow cutting.

black colour is basic. i wear this colour most of the time. yes, my feet are boring.

there was a period of time when i was super mesmerized with light gold shoes.

it's hard to find the right red colour tone on the right shoes but every girl should at least own a pair.

well, i do explore other colours. the lightly shinny blue flats are my fav for the moment. purple flats made with felt cloths, super comfy yet not easy to match. i realised mustard yellow flats are too tight for me when i got back to sg. i guess my feet shrank while i was in london. tsumori chisato's (the one with strings) are to experimental to wear. the green sandals somehow gives me a nostalgic feel. the greyish blue oxford shoes are present from my sis which i still donno how to macth.

i love casual so much that i wear flip flop most of the time. not all of the above but mostly the white ones with tatami base. yes my favourite. this is the Nth pair i bought from Accessorize!

i used to be a super Converse fan during teenage. i was very particular about the colour combination and even a different colour tag at the back of the shoes would make me buy them. but since years ago i started to switch to more feminine style, so these are the only few pairs i still keep. they are my best travel companion. they are classic.

comfy and warm leather boots/sneaker for travel during winter.

i have given away some and left with 32 pairs now. and i should stop buying shoes for now.

矛盾。

我要說的跟這照片沒關係。只不過我拍得太美了得把它放上。
我要說的是人生充滿矛盾。我想好好地活慢慢地做仔細感受。
可是賺錢機會又不能放過。因為某些現實的基本夢想需要錢。
我想說人生啊衝衝也匆匆。充滿矛盾充滿矛盾充滿無限矛盾。

what i want.

i cried in my dream last night. i donno why. but when i'm awake, i actually feel happy with my life. although there are many things to be achieved but i shall start with one thing first:


i want to possess less.



i'm not referring to money here. hahaha... i realise that i have too many unnecessary stuff around me. i should only keep those that is necessary. and when i get something that i need, i shall go for real good quality so that it will last long and no wastage.

we all should take only what we need from the earth.

peanut butter cuppie

one of my favourite cuppie at Caramel. catch it while you can.

可愛い魚屋さん ♥

went to visit Haru and i must say it's such joyful moments spent with this free spirited & inspiring family! it's pleasant to look at how Kaz & Les take care of Haru! with such care, no wonder Haru is not just an adorable baby but also a happy friendly baby and a baby with good taste!
♥ sayang sayang Haru ♥

map up the wall!

took this pic at a lovely cafe in greenwich (i'm so sorry i didn't check out the name). i simply love these wall papers! it reminds me that i used to love vintage maps very much during my teenage. one day i will have my own house with a wall all wrapped with the maps of countries that i have been. and oh, not forgetting the small flags from the ceiling as well!

捧上天的幸運

你們就笑我沒見過大場面吧！曾經，我嘆自己這一輩子都坐不起first class，可是...



天啊！



我真是托我媽的“阿金之處女遠遊世界”的福，竟然因為送行的阿姨意外地在機場遇上本機的pilot而被升級到first class！貴經濟倉整整有十倍的first class 有什麽不同呢？除了能降成180º的座椅，更大幅的絲制被子，靠窗一整排的收納櫃，分段為前菜與主菜地送上的機餐（可是沒分開serve甜品），其他也跟經濟倉差不多。但我還是很惜福地全程不睡，被喂得很飽加磕了四套電影。

我由衷地感恩老天！ （ ’ u ‘ )

原來有些曾經覺得不可能的事，是會發生的。

美好時光。

今天下午和母親到公園里走走，買了雪糕，薯片和啤酒，我們坐下，開始吃吃喝喝，看著經過的可愛小孩與狗，聽著風穿梭過樹葉的聲音，猶如瀑布傾洩而下，有的沒的地聊著。就這麼簡單，卻這麼美好。

lovely weather

風和日麗。就連流浪漢也快活地享受。
大自然給的快樂啊完全不須一分一毫。
你那舒服的樣子，我不得不大膽偷拍。
真的不好意思咯。

有感。

有些事不能說，因為說了沒比沒說的好
有些事不想說，因為說了也不會變更好

• • • • • • • •

有些事看起來好像是那樣其實並非那樣
只不過是你想多了，不能怪什麼。
有些人看起來好像是這樣其實並非這樣
只不過是你想錯了，不能怪別人。

• • • • • • • •

有時候會突然想起一些久違的感覺
一直督促自己微笑不去在意那些事
停下想想再問問自己這樣真的好嗎
也許這也不失為更適合我的方式吧
我用盡正面的想法鼓厲自己要勇敢
都已走到這里不行的都已不怎樣了

• • • • • • • •

今天下午我故作瀟洒地對你說了那句話
我在那瞬間才發覺自己原來是

非

常

惆

悵

the other end of the wheel.

to me, Vivian Maier's photos do not only make time stood still for the moment captured by her but they even make time disappeared. i feel no difference between us even though it's more than half a century away. the way she took her own self portraits, the looks in the people's eyes, the body languages... i see similarities between people in that era and people nowadays. or i should say, she was way ahead of her era.

"well i suppose nothing is meant to last forever. we have to make room for other people. it's a wheel. you get on you have to go to the end. and then somebody has the same opportunity to go the the end and so on. and somebody else takes their place."

through her photographs, i see "the wheel".

*kuan, thanks so much for sharing such inspiration with me!

at a curious t.p.

my first visit to a curious t.p. for a group show which i have taken part. it's definitely a shop worth visiting. and oh! thanks to kuan, sin and ck for dropping by to support!

first attempt of hand stitching an illustration.

...and i almost died from stitching! it's therapeutic to do stitching but not when you are rushing for deadline. :-/

ミナを着て旅に出よう (wearing Mina and go traveling) is the title of a book i read long ago. it's written by Akira Minagawa, who is the designer behind the fashion brand, Mina Perhonen. the book was basically about how he turned himself from a long distance runner to a part-timer in the fish market and finally a fashion designer. in the fish market, he observed life and got inspired. Akira Minagawa puts simple motifs which you can find in everyday life onto fabrics. he is a fashion designer with the spirit of a long distance runner, who believes in making fashion that has stamina to cross through lapse of time without losing its charm.

i wonder why most fashion only focus the beauty and vibrancy on the young ones while the old ones seems to be neglected most of the time. to me, an elderly like my grandmother, who is a long distance runner in her own journey of life, deserves wearing Mina Perhonen with long distance runner's spirit. what you see on the canvas is a picture i took of my grandmother on a trip to the southern part of the world. the first picture that captured her laughing so happily hard.