30.4.09
everything is new.
i hate changing new phone but i got a new one, sadly i'm not sure if i should shift his number into my new phone. or maybe even this doubt is extra. the number has been in my mind for so long anyway...however...slowly but surely... (' u ')
28.4.09
sophie black & roses.
a surprise to me that sophie black looks perfect with pink roses! (' u ')
been thinking of how to express for sophie lately... figuring out how to put her together with new elements...
27.4.09
jewelgraphy.
i am not into buying jewel but somehow i luv jewel in different cuttings. this greeting card designed by Naoko Fukuoka totally got me! (' u ')
超うまい！超うまい！
酷いねわたし！こんなにうまいみそ汁を作られて。。。もう〜自分でも感動しちゃったよ〜もともとみそ汁の作り方は簡単だけど。
我也太酷了吧！隨便亂做也這麼好喝的みそ汁！第一口讓自己感動得不得了！ 看它多晶凝透澈啊！對不起，有點太high，其實みそ汁隨便亂做也能這麼好喝的。
26.4.09
girls' outing.
it's been a very very long time! and finally last weekend i had Huey came all the way to stay over at my place for the weekend. tanoshikatta! hope we can do zoo next time! ('u')
23.4.09
我知道我很健忘。
這照片如果沒記錯，是炎炎夏日中，你在我宿舍房裡幫我拍的吧。也許我當時正要把頭髮弄干。人的某些記憶經過多年會漸漸變得与事實不符。而有多少記憶已從我腦海流逝，我真說不上來。可是有些你和你們為我做過的貼心小事情我真不想不小心忘了，但卻又太瑣碎不能一一寫下。經過這麼多年，雖然像你說的現在已不是從前，要向前看。可是那些無价的回憶与經驗不正是我在這俗世一路跌跌撞撞走來唯一可留下的寶物嗎。曾經不能想像失去後生活怎麼過，失去後才發覺其實也死不了。而且告訴自己下次有幸再得到時要更珍惜。但，再珍惜嘛也不代表永遠不會失去。對方不珍惜也徒然。人各有各覺悟的時辰。不管接下來縱橫交錯的路途中會遇上什麼，健忘的我只不想遺忘某些重要的小事情。此時的我就像個老人不禁感傷懵懂青春的流逝。不過就因為知道時間不留人，所以要學會活在當下。('u')
22.4.09
越來越好的日子。
其實這樣也很不錯。因為生活本來就得一樣失一樣，沒有完美的。我要學習更正面的思考，活用意志力。happiness is not a destination but the way we travel along our journey. だから、できるだけ精神レベルを上げるよ！がんばります！
20.4.09
my dear.
soon, we are meeting up again. i wanna give you a big hug. we are going to look at each other and be speechless for a short moment. then there will be smile of happiness on our faces, tears of joy in our eyes. we may have nothing much to talk at the beginning. i'm passing you 小團圓 which you have been looking forward to read. and you are gonna show me where you put my drawing of the black bird in your little home. you got to introduce me your best friends there. we are gonna eat and drink our favourites together. we are gonna give our best wishes to the innocent one who is safe in heaven.
yes, we are going to. very soon.
and for now, take very deep breath and focus on what you got to do. even though you are horrified now, you are sure gonna make it and be amazed by your own strength.
yes, we are going to. very soon.
and for now, take very deep breath and focus on what you got to do. even though you are horrified now, you are sure gonna make it and be amazed by your own strength.
10.4.09
9.4.09
8.4.09
i have no experience but i'd like to learn.
my line when i called into almost every single job classified ad. even though "with 2 years of experience" made me feel so inadequate, i still called anyway. those were my green days.
7.4.09
not found.
僕はつい见えもしないものに頼って逃げる︱君はすぐ形で示してほしいとごねる︱矛盾しあった几つもの事が正しさを出张しているよ︱爱するって奥が深いんだ︱何処まで行けば分かり合えるのだろう︱歌や诗になれないこの感情と苦悩︱君に触れていたい痛みすら伴い歯痒くとも切なくとも︱微笑みを 微笑みを︱爱という素敌な嘘で骗してほしい︱自分だって思ってたひとがまた违う颜を见せるよ︱ねぇそれって君のせいかな︱どのくらいすれば忘れられんのだろう︱过去の自分に向けたこの后悔と憎悪︱君に触れていたい︱优しい胸の上であの覚束无い子守呗を︱もう一度 もう一度︱昨日探し当てた场所に今日もジャンプしてみるけれど︱なぜかNOT FOUND 今日は NOT FOUND︱ジェットコースターみたいに浮き沈み︱何処まで行けば辿り着けるのだろう︱目の前に积まれたこの绝望と希望︱君に触れていたい痛みすら伴い歯痒くとも切なくとも︱微笑みを 微笑みを︱もう一度 微笑みを
＊ずっと前から好きだった曲。２０００年だったけ？もう１０年ぐらい！私の場合はまだnot foundだけど。
喜歡張縣信任的樣子。
那天我開始去想信任的樣子 | 信任臉上畫了艷麗的妝而眼神天真 | 信任其實是多抽絲剝繭的詮釋 | 你如果還有深入淺出的表達 別怕 | 大部分時間裏也只是誤會一場 | 誤會眉梢描著迷人的歉疚但修剪很差 | 誤會給人們機會決定感想 | 想著沒什麼事情不值得尷尬 不值得尷尬 | 也覺得這就是誠實罷 | 明白希望也許並不是都長得儀表堂堂 | 所以我不再忙著沮喪 | 手裡有打開門的鑰匙 | 但我得承認我只喜歡在生命的房間開一扇窗 | 畢竟日子有來有往 | 那天我開始去想信任的樣子 | 信任臉上畫了艷麗的妝而眼神天真 | 信任其實是多抽絲剝繭的詮釋 | 你如果還有誤會的感傷 漂亮
片段中有些散落有些深刻的錯︱還不懂這一秒鐘怎麼舉動怎麼好好地和誰牽手︱那寂寞有些許不同 我挑著留下沒說︱那生活還過分激動 沒什麼我已經以為能夠把握︱而我不再覺得失去是捨不得︱有時候只願意聽你唱完一首歌︱在所有人事已非的景色裡我最喜歡你..︱片段中有些散落有些深刻的錯︱還不懂這一秒鐘怎麼舉動怎麼好好和你過︱那寂寞有些許不同 我挑著留下沒說︱那生活還過分激動 沒什麼我已經以為能夠把握︱你知道你曾經讓人被愛並且經過︱畢竟是有著怯怯但能給的沉默︱在所有不被想起的快樂裡我最喜歡你..︱而我不再覺得失去是捨不得︱有時候只願意聽你唱完一首歌︱在所有人事已非的景色裡我最喜歡你..︱而我不再覺得..
5.4.09
3.4.09
寂しいの？
私：そう。寂しいよ。
私：特に金曜の夜に強く感じるね。
私：そう。
私：ビール飲もうか。
私：いいよ。
私：あ、タバコも。
私：いいよ。
私：みんなはいないね。
私：仕様がないな。
私：もう昔じゃないからね。
私：そう。
私：乾杯。
私：乾杯〜。
1.4.09
我愛。 你。
多简单 爱情 像就做完的梦 清楚 模糊 ︱ 多简单 像第一次问你爱不爱 你说 爱 爱 ︱ 多美丽 回答 它轻轻的掠过 不愿落下 ︱ 这一些热的烈的情 和苍白的浮冰 多无影 ︱ 啊… 散 散落 那些忽而现 又有时隐而不见的飞 ︱ 啊… 散落 那些抓不住的 才是真的 ︱ 多简单 爱情 它轻轻的掠过 不愿落下 ︱ 这一些热的烈的情 都无影 ︱ 啊 多透明 ︱ 啊… 散 散落 那些忽而现 又有时隐而不见的飞 ︱ 啊… 散落 那些忽而亮 转而模糊 隐隐约约飘落 ︱ 啊… 散 散落 那些忽而现 又有时隐而不见的坠 ︱ 啊… 散落
哈，愛情原來像polaroid。
謝了阿偉讓我看見這mv。根本就一見一听鐘情!
31.3.09
30.3.09
大掃除。
家裡一團亂，好多擱在一邊未處理的事物。終於在前天開始大掃除了。与其說是家裡大掃除，不如說是心靈大掃除。在大掃除間最大的困擾就是，捨与不捨。我是蠻健忘的，可是我很念舊。不小心從箱子裡，柜子裡，抽屜裡翻出來的一件件回憶，我就會發起呆來，百般滋味讓我有一種迷失感。還是遺失感？然後提醒自己生不帶來死帶不去，一個人在外帶著這麼重包負多難前進啊。在這種心裡愐懷与爭扎間，大掃除緩慢地進行著。丟吧捨吧。這樣才能輕松過簡化生活。
28.3.09
i have forgotten [6]
市川実日子。I had been admiring her a lot in my early 20s. She is still cool and perfect to me. ('u')
26.3.09
突然ですが...
...荒木经惟＆森山大道に引かれた!
荒木经惟
...“《感伤的旅行》是我的爱，也是我作为摄影师的决心。我拍摄自己的新婚旅行，所以是真实的摄影。”...“我在日常的淡淡地走过去的顺序中感觉到什么。” 与其把荒木经惟看作一个“躲在镜头后面的淫秽摄影者，不如像电影“东京日和”里描述的那样，将之看作一个普通日本市民，他和妻子阳子之间的感情如同任何一对相爱的夫妻一样，是在生活琐碎的矛盾之中，在无数次误会拌嘴之中慢慢积累起来的。这种感情或许看似已归于平淡，但每一次静默的晚饭、无声的散步中，无不包含了无尽的爱意。荒木选择了用相机来记录这种感情，直到阳子临终的那一刻——相纸上留下的是两只紧握的手，两位即将离别爱人的手，镜头凝固下来的，是马上要归于两个世界人之间的道别。
森山大道
日本摄影家森山大道喜欢以狗自比。他曾经这么形容自己：“我以前每天就像一条狗在路上到处排泄似的在街头各处拍摄照片”。对于城市和街头的迷恋开始得更早。小时候我喜欢画画，说到学习就头疼，喜欢一个人在街上瞎逛。很少和一群人出去玩，总是一个人在街上。从某种意义上，街头成了我最好的朋友。现在的我也还是如此，其实还是当年那个孩子，只是手中多了一只相机。
ハツコイ娼女。
神秘で出来た美しい獣を観る。捜していたものを見つけた悦びをいま唄に代えよう。届いて ”あなたの名前を知りたい。嗚呼きっといつか呼べます様に。”
神秘は識らない己が奇跡だとは 後ろめたい気持ちのわたしは言い訳も唄に代えよう。例えば ”あなたの鼓動を聴きたい。嗚呼ずっと遥か遠くからも。”
”あなたの視点を読みたい。嗚呼今日が逃げてゆく前に、あなたの名前を呼びたい。嗚呼どうかあなた疎まないで。”
*這ＭＶ太美了！像射出的精液，像吹散的煙，像噴射的花火，像漫遊的水母，像飄渺的浮雲，像無窮的宇宙，千變万化，難以捉摸，神秘陰沉，鏡花水月，逝去無痕，訴說的是一個娼妓的初戀。連名字也不知道。
concert version:
ギブス
あなたはすぐに写真を撮りたがる。あたしは何时も其れを厌がるの。だって写真になっちゃえば、あたしが古くなるじゃない。あなたはすぐに绝対などと云う。あたしは何时も其れを厌がるの。だって冷めてしまっちゃえば、其れすら嘘になるじゃない。此処に居てずっとずっとずっと。明日のことは判らない、だからぎゅっとしていてね、ぎゅっとしていてね、ダーリン。
あなたはすぐにいじけて见せたがる。あたしは何时も其れを喜ぶの。だってカートみたいだから、あたしがコートニーじゃない。傍に来てもっともっともっと。昨日のことは忘れちゃおう、そしてぎゅっとしていてね、ぎゅっとしていてね、ダーリン。
また四月が来たよ。同じ日のことを思い出して。此処に居てずっと ずっと ずっと。明日のことは判らない、だからぎゅっとしていてね。傍に来てもっともっともっと。昨日のことは忘れちゃおう、そしてぎゅっとしていてね、ぎゅっとしていてね、ダーリン。
＊明日のことはわからなかったから、つい写真をいっぱいとられた私があなたにとって古くなちゃった。Somehow grief is contagious.＊
22.3.09
お弁当を作りたいな〜
お弁当=幸福。對我來說是這樣的。裡面除了美味還有滿滿的愛。最好玩的就是可以不同顏色的食物排出不同的樣式。為心愛的人做便當好幸福，吃愛人做的便當好幸福。吃自己做的也好幸福啦。 要做！ ('u')
19.3.09
16.3.09
15.3.09
ソフトピンク・ソフトアイス。
見るだけて気持ちよくさせてくれるソフトアイス。お天気はまだ曇りだけど、大丈夫だと思えてくる。お母さんがすぐ戻って来るはずなので、待ってるよ。今日習ったのは、自分の幸せは自分が決めるということだ。そうそう、私はこんな家族がいて、こんな友達がいて、理想の仕事もできて、自由を持って、結構幸せじゃん。人生は完璧というものじゃないから。('u')
7.3.09
6.3.09
da la la...
Every time I think of you | I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue | It's no problem of mine but its a problem I find | Living a life that I cant leave behind | There's no sense in telling me | The wisdom of a fool wont set you free | But that's the way that it goes | And its what nobody knows | And every day my confusion grows | Every time I see you falling | I get down on my knees and pray | I'm waiting for that final moment | You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good | I feel like I never should | Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say | Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday | I'm not sure what this could mean | I don't think you're what you seem | I do admit to myself | That if I hurt someone else | Then I'll never see just what were meant to be | Every time I see you falling | I get down on my knees and pray | I'm waiting for that final moment | You'll say the words that I can't say
dance or die!
5.3.09
tuesdays with morrie
..."The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn't work, don't buy it."...
..."So many people walking around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."...
..."The truth is, part of me is every age. I'm a three-year-old, I'm a five-year-old, I'm a thirty-seven-year-old, I'm a fifty-year-old. I've been through all of them, and i know what it's like. I delight in being a child when it's appropriate to be a child, I delight in being a wise old man when it's appropriate to be a wise old man. Think of all i can be! I am every age, up to my own. How can I be envious of where you are - when I've been there myself?"...
..."Learn to detach...But detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That's how you are able to leave it... Throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience then fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, ' Alright. I have experienced the emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.'"...
..."When you learn how to die, you learn how to live."...
..."Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone."...
28.2.09
they told me "slowly but surely".
slowly but surely i won't feel such pain in my chest.
slowly but surely i won't miss you every single second.
slowly but surely i won't miss those wonderful trips.
slowly but surely i won't recall those conversations we had.
slowly but surely i won't see you hugging me in my dream anymore.
slowly but surely i won't see your ghost everywhere we have been.
slowly but surely i won't look at your photos anymore.
slowly but surely i won't imagine your bike parking in the alley.
slowly but surely i won't imagine you knocking at my door.
slowly but surely i won't recall how you said "oi de".
slowly but surely i won't recall how you told me "ano suki desu".
slowly but surely i won't wonder what you are doing at this time.
slowly but surely i won't miss your dog and wonder if she's doing good.
slowly but surely i won't miss your mom and your aunt.
slowly but surely i won't remember which floor you stay.
slowly but surely i won't remember the view from your window.
slowly but surely i won't remember your scent.
slowly but surely i won't remember the way you snore.
slowly but surely i won't remember how you rolled in my bed.
slowly but surely i won't remember the brand you smoke.
slowly but surely i won't remember your favourites.
slowly but surely i won't remember your number.
slowly but surely i won't be reminded of you when i see anything japanese.
slowly but surely i won't mind those lies you told me.
slowly but surely i won't mind what you promised but didn't really mean it.
slowly but surely i won't mind how cruel & cold the way you left me.
slowly but surely i won't be disappointed with you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't be jealous about you & her.
slowly but surely i won't love you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't hate you either.
because it's heart-breaking, it's tiring,
it's depressing, it's torturing,
it's not the way i used to be.
because this is how nature rules.
just like spring comes after winter.
slowly but surely i won't miss you every single second.
slowly but surely i won't miss those wonderful trips.
slowly but surely i won't recall those conversations we had.
slowly but surely i won't see you hugging me in my dream anymore.
slowly but surely i won't see your ghost everywhere we have been.
slowly but surely i won't look at your photos anymore.
slowly but surely i won't imagine your bike parking in the alley.
slowly but surely i won't imagine you knocking at my door.
slowly but surely i won't recall how you said "oi de".
slowly but surely i won't recall how you told me "ano suki desu".
slowly but surely i won't wonder what you are doing at this time.
slowly but surely i won't miss your dog and wonder if she's doing good.
slowly but surely i won't miss your mom and your aunt.
slowly but surely i won't remember which floor you stay.
slowly but surely i won't remember the view from your window.
slowly but surely i won't remember your scent.
slowly but surely i won't remember the way you snore.
slowly but surely i won't remember how you rolled in my bed.
slowly but surely i won't remember the brand you smoke.
slowly but surely i won't remember your favourites.
slowly but surely i won't remember your number.
slowly but surely i won't be reminded of you when i see anything japanese.
slowly but surely i won't mind those lies you told me.
slowly but surely i won't mind what you promised but didn't really mean it.
slowly but surely i won't mind how cruel & cold the way you left me.
slowly but surely i won't be disappointed with you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't be jealous about you & her.
slowly but surely i won't love you anymore.
slowly but surely i won't hate you either.
because it's heart-breaking, it's tiring,
it's depressing, it's torturing,
it's not the way i used to be.
because this is how nature rules.
just like spring comes after winter.
19.2.09
傻勁 • 堅持 • 愛
當時剛蘇醒的我，迷迷糊糊地，鼻腔裡積滿血塊，口腔滿是血腥。
唇干烈得像兩片旱地，呼吸只靠著干冷的空气經過快破烈的喉嚨。
全神灌注每一呼每一吸，在想著我在干嘛，讓自己經歷這些？
如果當初知道會這樣，我會做嗎？做人真的需要一股傻勁吧。
如果當初知道太多，我也許就不會做了。
好啦，現在每一分每一秒，都好痛好苦。
骨頭，口腔內，舌頭，喉嚨，唇，臉，頭。
藥丸。藥丸。藥丸。藥丸。藥丸。藥丸。
挨餓。無味。挨餓。無味。挨餓。無味。
我能做的只有堅持了。
朋友的關心讓人感動。
家人的愛是無价。
好幸運有他們在。
除了一個。
真是這樣子嗎？
11.2.09
8.2.09
Mom's here.
My mom arrived yesterday. I brought her to a 'date'. At dinner, she enjoyed her first bowl of kyushu ramen, especially that big round piece of char siew (except a lil too salty for her). Then I showed her to Singapore river, we sat by the river, eating ocha+lychee ice-cream while our hair were dancing wild the in wind. We chatted a lot. Mum has been working her whole life away for the family, rarely she has chance to chill like this with me. Since my teen age, we have been apart most of the time. I think the beauty about relationship with family is, the longer/further we are away from our family, the closer we become. I'm so glad she is here with me now. Even though... at least... ('u')
4.2.09
一雙紅鞋走天涯。
是否每個女孩子都想要一雙紅鞋？我小時只穿黑色和白色的皮鞋，如今老大了，反而覺得女人應該有一雙紅鞋傍身，可能是因為我從來沒有勇氣為每片腳指甲塗上鮮紅色，也沒勇氣穿上艷紅色的內衣吧。
很想找的時候沒找到，不去找的時候，這雙紅鞋卻好像為我停下了腳步，羞澀地在那兒向我招手似的。最後一雙，只有我的尺碼，朋友看到想買，已經沒有了。
我想起前兩天為明年一月出版的台版圖文珍藏版第四冊《女人的愛情行李》寫的一篇序，是寫一個失戀的女人打包行李離開。一個人擁有的東西，總是愈來愈多。我們搬進一個新家的時候，也許只是帶著一個箱子，要走的時候，東西卻裝滿了二十個箱子。
捨棄從來不比擁有容易，尤其是要從心愛的東西裡捨棄其中一些，好讓自己輕身上路。
終究有一天，你會明白，我們只是旅人。人生的百轉千迴中，根本一直也佈滿了一個一個車站，機場和渡頭。我們相聚，我們離別，我們是彼此生命中的一個旅人，留下了歡樂或悲傷的足跡，然後各自轉到下一個未知的地方去。
每一場相聚，都是離別的開始。既然我們要去的終站是不一樣的，我們要走的路也不相同，這場相聚，只能在其中一站分手。
捨不得你，但路還是要走下去，前面也許有一片更旖旎的風光。抹乾眼淚，我走我的路，如果你曾是那麼值得愛，我會永遠懷念你，謝謝你陪我走了一程。如果你不值得，我會把你抖落，當作從來沒有認識你，你是我年少無知所犯下的最愚蠢的錯誤。
每一段旅程、每一個過客、每一次心碎，後來都讓我長大。從今以後，脫掉童稚的小花襪子，換上一雙紅鞋，走我絢爛的天涯。
＊jan 19th 2009 by 張小嫻
媽的我這一陣子也太太太感性了吧。可是我知道有一天這麼感性的我有消失的可能。不管了，這是我走過的，沒什麼好隱藏的。
2.2.09
...But the sheep had taught him something even more important: that there was a language in the world that everybody understood, a language the boy had used throughout the time that he was trying to improve things at the shop. It was the language of enthusiasm, of things accomplished with love and purpose, and as part of a search for something believed in and desired. Thangier was no longer a strange city, and he felt that just as he had conquered this place, he could conquer the world....
...He still had some doubt about the decision he had made, But he was able to understand one thing: making a decision was only the beginning of things. When someone make a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision...
..."they are not my sheep anymore," he said to himself, without nostalgia. "They must be used to their new shepherd, and have probably already forgotten me. That's good. Creatures like sheep, that are used to traveling, know about moving on."...
...Never stop dreaming. Follow the omens. When you want something, all the universe conspires to help you achieve it...
..."Because I don't live in either my past or my future. I'm interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. You'll see that there is life in the desert, that there are stars in the heavens...Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now."...
...The alchemist opened a bottle and poured a red liquid into the boy's cup. It was the most delicious wine he had ever tasted. "Isn't wine prohibited here?" the boy asked. "It's not what enters men's mouths that's evil," said the alchemist. "It's what comes out of their mouth that is."...
..."You must understand that love never keeps a man from pursuing his Personal Legend. If he abandons that pursuit, it's because it wasn't true love...the love that speaks the Language of the World."...
*from the alchemist, paulo coelho.
...He still had some doubt about the decision he had made, But he was able to understand one thing: making a decision was only the beginning of things. When someone make a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision...
..."they are not my sheep anymore," he said to himself, without nostalgia. "They must be used to their new shepherd, and have probably already forgotten me. That's good. Creatures like sheep, that are used to traveling, know about moving on."...
...Never stop dreaming. Follow the omens. When you want something, all the universe conspires to help you achieve it...
..."Because I don't live in either my past or my future. I'm interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. You'll see that there is life in the desert, that there are stars in the heavens...Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now."...
...The alchemist opened a bottle and poured a red liquid into the boy's cup. It was the most delicious wine he had ever tasted. "Isn't wine prohibited here?" the boy asked. "It's not what enters men's mouths that's evil," said the alchemist. "It's what comes out of their mouth that is."...
..."You must understand that love never keeps a man from pursuing his Personal Legend. If he abandons that pursuit, it's because it wasn't true love...the love that speaks the Language of the World."...
*from the alchemist, paulo coelho.
1.2.09
華麗的冒險
長長的路的盡頭是一片滿是星星的夜空•這一趟華麗的冒險沒有真實的你陪我走•長長的時間的旅程充滿太多未知的誘惑•數不清對你承諾過的一切•還有多少沒有實現過•不願放開手•不願讓你走•瘋狂的夢沒有了你•還有什麼用•不願放開手•不願讓你走•不願眼睜睜的看你•走出我的生活
(都不重要了，我還是會繼續走下去。)
lovely friends.
i am so lucky to have such excellent & talented friends like you guys/girls.
i will always remember what you did for me.
i love you all. *muahhhs*
i will always remember what you did for me.
i love you all. *muahhhs*
11 more days.
after 11 more days, it will mark a new chapter in my life.
my life project will begin.
i got to keep this vision.
i got to keep my passion.
i got to be patient.
i got to be brave.
i thought i am hopelessly stuck but last night was definitely a special night.
i am glad to have this unusual conversation with them.
they are going to do that and they inspired me an unusual alternative.
what they mentioned has matched my dream.
a simple life.
yes, a simple life out of this superficial world.
yet i will still keep what i am gifted with.
i am kind of excited and scared at the same time now.
of course it will be perfect if i have a partner with the same vision.
anyway, i don't care.
anyway, i don't belong to anywhere.
anyway, wherever i go, i am alone.
anyway, what can be worse?
this vision must be realised. ('u')
my life project will begin.
i got to keep this vision.
i got to keep my passion.
i got to be patient.
i got to be brave.
i thought i am hopelessly stuck but last night was definitely a special night.
i am glad to have this unusual conversation with them.
they are going to do that and they inspired me an unusual alternative.
what they mentioned has matched my dream.
a simple life.
yes, a simple life out of this superficial world.
yet i will still keep what i am gifted with.
i am kind of excited and scared at the same time now.
of course it will be perfect if i have a partner with the same vision.
anyway, i don't care.
anyway, i don't belong to anywhere.
anyway, wherever i go, i am alone.
anyway, what can be worse?
this vision must be realised. ('u')
30.1.09
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